We all still need other people to spur us on. I need my friends, i have them to repeatedly tell me that it is not worth it. I know it myself, but yknow sometimes you just can't help it. I tried to stop because i didnt want to ruin the night and it was ma night but i still did. Ahh, i suck! And i love them, they stood by me. I can't thank them enough, i thank God for them. As much as others can help me, i have to help myself to grow out of this phase. Sidetrack a little.. Have i mention that sometimes it's rather annoying to read tweets on twitter when there is a lot of, "i miss my blahh. I love my blahhh... Etc". Just those blahhh blahh blahhh tweets, oh so lovey dovey. Urgh, yeah call me envious jealous or whatever not. Duh, what do you expect from a heartbroken lady here? Hahaha. Alright, back on track. I guess i'm being/have been delusional many a times although there really are genuine moments where i honestly felt the joy in me, and took all that had happen as crap, bullshitz, whatever not. Oh wow, i just learnt that i'm a broken record. Hah, like okay?! Imma just take it in my stride yeah. Hmmm. Respect! i've allowed people to dissrespect me because i've been too soft hearted and forgiving. I hardly hold any grudges because i'd rather see the good in people. BUT.. There's always a limit! Most importantly, i've learnt that you have to love yourself first before expecting love from the other party. (yeap, you really do need to realise that you need to love yourself ma dear.) Gosh, i'm utterly ashamed, embarrassed that i was sobbing practically the whole night at butterfact. Opened bottles, my first drink was a flaming and i gotta admit i didnt drink THAT much, not as much as i expect myself to drink. Well, I was feeling so upbeat happy awesome at 1 Altitude with charm and beat. Oh, i love the ambience and tequila rose? See, i don't like to get wasted otherwise i'll become a major sobbing queen. Woke up to see texts, comforting wise texts from y'all i cant be grateful enough. They just made my morning. Much love.
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