It's the Effort.

I do not understand. Why is it that whenever I try to put effort into something, nobody fucking sees it nor appreciate it! I do not fucking yearn for anything in return. Neither did I fucking ASK for anything. What's wrong with wanting to do it on my own freewill? Do you not see me as the way I actually am because you thought of me as otherwise? Fuck myself. I'm just isn't good in/for anything.