you're not even there when i really needed you. there's so much i want to share with you. but you... can't be bothered with me. All you can do is complain about the unnecessary stuffs.
I've always wanting to find the perfect right time to share certain stuffs with you, like what i've been going through. But there's never this time. It never happens.
Or maybe should i say, i'd rather hold myself back because i'm afraid of being judged by you yet again. Being judged once, it felt worst than ever already. How about twice or thrice?
Maybe this is how it is. I have to face and handle everything on my own.(except the financial part.) After all, i'm turning 21. I thought you should be the first i should go to whenever i face something. But it tells me otherwise, i'm so over it.
Ever since i don't know how young, i think i've taught myself just so many. I have to fix things and go through whatever shit not on my own. No matter how sad unhappy or whatsoever, i'm on my own.
Thanks so much for the attention i get.
It's okay, i understand.
